HELLO LOVE.

So I've always thought of myself as really independent. And emotionally strong... 

Not needing other people or objects to make me happy.

Being super chill and nontraditional in a relationship.

I proved myself wrong tho.

I was given the option to work a sleepover Friday night, Valentine's Day.

Knowing that I wouldn't be able to see my boyfriend all day Friday, I thought I'd be ok with it, and told my boss I would work, no big deal right?!

wrong.

What's happening to me?

Why do I feel like I need him by my side 24/7?

Why can't I go a day without seeing him before I get all annoying about missing him?

***

Friday-Valentine's Day:

I actually got to see my boyfriend for about 10min. 

He just went on lunch break and I was about to have to go to work. Subway?

(I'll be getting in trouble for posting this one!)

The after school kids had "bags on bags" of candy.

Needless to say they were H.Y.P.E.R!

One little girl may have given me a huge Pixie Stick...

 

Then I worked the sleepover!

On Valentine's Day, we wear Pink.

 

oh! My best friend got engaged on Friday!!

Saturday: 

Waking up after a sleepover is always the worst! So. Tired.

I finally went to the eye doctor.

I need glasses for night driving (which is what I figured)

apparently I need glasses when I'm on the computer or reading too

 (yes. I had to.)

And then, I finally got to do Valentine's Day! 

I had someone tell me that her and her new husband have always MADE each other something for Valentine's Day. It's sweet, fun, and means more.

So we did!

I made the "52 Reasons Why I Love You"

and he made me some amazing Red Velvet cake and brownie cupcakes!

 

HB Steakhouse for dinner!

Sunday: 

Went to "Brunch" with my dad and sis.

I wouldn't call eating at 3:30 brunch, but that's what Puerto Tacos calls it.

and the weather was AMAZING!

and a shout out to my country who needs our help!

Twitter. Instagram. Facebook.

 #PrayForVenezuela
#SOSVenezuela

2:03am

...because it's 2:03am and I can't fall asleep.

when reality becomes better than you dreams, it's quite hard to fall asleep.

so these are some of the things I do as the time passes...

10:00 comes around and I turn the tv to channel 43 to watch 'Nick @ Night' because "Friends" is now on!

But because I love it so much, I didn't fall asleep watching it.

so now it's 12:06, "Friends" is over, now "George Lopez" is on.

But because "George Lopez" makes me laugh so much, I'm wide awake!

So now it's 2am and I can't fall asleep.

so I think about my plans for Wednesday (bc it's Tuesday night as I type this), and think..

"I get out of work early tomorrow, I wanna hang out with Donny Ray, but I have homework due at 10pm.."

so I start my homework.

5 stories to read, 3 discussion questions to answer.

(my phone's been charging, and my alarms are already set!)

 but now it's 2:21 and I'm distracted by this blog. so I'm gonna get back to my homework.

***

update on what I've done that past 20 min..
I answered a discussion question (1 down, 2 more to go!)
oh but in the middle of answering that I checked to see if I got paid
cha-ching! $$$
ok, back to work

***

3:28 and my homework is done!
if y'all actually read that last picture, you'd see that I had to discuss how I would teach 4th graders about symbolism?! sheesh that was hard to answer!

now that it's getting pretty close to 4am(?!) I REALLY should try to get some sleep.

So I check my emails that I get from Kohl's & Groupon at 3:30am.
I get on Facebook. except nobody is awake at 3:31am.
I get on Instagram. but the only person posting pics at 3:32am is Scott Disick

my boyfriend (along with the rest of Texas) is long asleep
and this is when it starts to get pretty boring.

So I turn on my country station, 100.3
and sing along til I fall asleep

Good night.

weekend update

something different for a change! a Country weekend for sure!

ok, so I honestly haven't had a weekend this fun in a long time.
Nothing too crazy because obviously I'm under age.. and still living at home.. and still have a curfew (given to me by my mother?!) ... way too many restrictions -_-

D and I went to the Humble Rodeo Cook Off and had a blast.

I swear I met ALL of his friends, and their mom's and their brother's and their sister's. It was a whole lot of people.

To be honest, I didn't really want to go. I don't like meeting new people but I knew he wanted to go so I sucked it up, put on my boots, and had a great time!

Drinks

None for me. I was the designated driver.

Food

Literally the nastiest nachos EVER.

Silly Pictures

A shout out to the cool kid who took a selfie on my phone

And a mechanical bull

LOL

There was some dancing in there too but, uhhh, he and I need a couple of lessons!

Happy Monday!

i tried!

I tried, I promise, I really did.

I tried not to be the girl who blows up everyone's Facebook with statuses about how great he is. I tried not to blow up your Instagram with pictures that I find so precious and to y'all are probably so lame. I tried so hard not to write a blog about him.

BUT I CAN'T HELP IT ANYMORE.

• I tried not to be too excited because I didn't wanna hurt others more than what I already did.
• I tried not to talk about him too much on Facebook and check in every time we were together, or every time we went on "date night".
• I tried not to talk about him to my friends because I KNOW how annoying that can be.. I get it, y'all don't care.

BUT I DON'T CARE ANYMORE.

• You told me not to make my business public to everyone because it just leads to drama, and trouble...
• To keep my relationship private because no one else needs to know what I'm doing...
• To keep them wondering and just let them see how happy I am without them knowing all the details.

BUT I WANT THEM TO KNOW.

• I want them ALL to know how happy I am.  
• I want them to know how great he is...
• How wonderful he is to me..
• How I just absolutely adore him and cannot be more thankful to have him be all mine again.

I LOVE HIM!

 Whew! that felt good!

 Ok, so now you all know, that I have the greatest man ever and I could not be any happier.

LIFE IS GREAT.

Halloween!

I just wanna share some awesome costumes with y'all!

oh and my beautiful sister(:

back to the costumes!...

let's start with my mom :)

she dressed up for work as her favorite child hood character

Raggedy Ann!

saw this one online...

"why is there a tomato on the train?!"

"because it's the Subway!"

lol cheesy huh

my co-worker was a witch!

and we had a costume contest for the kids at work!

some of my favs

   

What does the fox say?

oh, hello Colton!

***

This year I didn't get to go trick-or-treating, or go to parties. 

I had to stay home. I had to study for a history test for Fri morning... 

who schedules a test for the day after Halloween?! ugh

Happy November y'all!

inspired.

lately it just seems that one good thing happens to me so that 5 bad ones can follow. and it all happens within a 2 week period. and the same person keeps seeing me make these mistakes. and I feel like I'm not doing a good job. and that I'm letting people down.

sometimes I just wanna cry

sometimes I just don't wanna get out of bed bc I'm afraid of what mistake I will make that day. 

or who I'm gonna "let down".

but then I realize, that's my job, as a human. to make mistakes and let someone fix them so I don't continue to make the same mistakes over again.

but then even after that, I realize, that if that's all that's wrong in my life, I've gotta quit complaining, because I've got it pretty damn good.

***

Earlier this week, one of my friends:

got in his truck to go to work, and it wouldn't start. 

Had it towed, dropped $130 for a new battery.

got back in his truck, the A.C. didn't work anymore?

and the radio wouldn't play any music.

later that day got pulled over for his headlights not being on

(ps. we both knew for a fact that they were! ugh!)

got home, had a ticket in the mail for running a red light.

but even after what I consider a terrible day, he still had a positive mind set. 

thankful for being alive, having a loving family, 

a working vehicle, a job, a home.

I know a guy:

with half a thumb, and still in a cast,

got a flat tire on his way to work..

had to fix it himself, with one hand.

I know a person:

who had been looking for a new job since mid summer.

applying basically everywhere

got some interviews but then didn't get called back.

but after a lot of patience, faith, and determination..

they recently just got a job they're happy with.

no settling or giving up.

***

These people have inspired me. I can't explain it, I guess I don't know how. 

They've just made me smile. That after all their struggles, they keep going. 

I've personally, yet to see any of them break down in public and just give up. 

I'm not saying hide all your emotions, I'm just saying be thankful for what you do have.

I've got to start thinking more positively.
I've got a mom, dad, and sister.
2 and a half jobs.
A perfectly good car.
A home.
Friends who stand by me through good & bad.
3 amazing bosses who are taking me to Disney for Thanksgiving..
(I mean if that's not great, than idk what is!!)

Thank y'all for being so strong and making me realize that there's always something good.

 "God is working things out for you, even if you don't feel it. Have faith and be thankful. 

Where faith grows, miracles blossom."

catch up!

... I don't know where to start. That's what I've been saying for the past 10 minutes.
I guess I can skip an intro and just say, I was inspired.

Ok so let me just update y'all on the past few months!

May:

Went to the T-Swift concert, making it only my 2nd concert ever.

Took Nikole  with me and had a blast!

 

June:

19th Birthday!

 Family Vaca

July:

Spent the 4th with bae <3

Then there was this night

Lil Wayne!

3rd Concert!

August:

Backstreet Boys!

4th concert! It was AMAZING! 

like seriously.

 

September: 

Panic! At The Disco. Fall Out Boy!

5th concert!

October:

Reunited<3

 and in between it all... 2 jobs, school, babysitting, and trying not to piss off my parents! lol

***

The past few months have been a roller coaster.

Ups, and many downs

We all make mistakes

...some more than others.

I've learned a lot 

I don't believe in regretting something I once enjoyed

So moving forward is all I can do :)

I'm SO excited for what the future has in store for me.

I think I've finally got it all<3

"LIVE LAUGH LOVE & PRAY

the rest will fall into place"

oh, one last thing...

I'M GOING TO THE DRAKE CONCERT!!!