Rose&Thorn

Rose&Thorn, Peak&Pit.. it's all the same!

Monday...

Rose: Getting a new iTouch case!

Thorn: Getting sick, and wanting to die because it was so bad

Tuesday...

Rose: Waking up..

Thorn: Not being able to go to karate because my tummy was hurting again :(

Wednesday...

Rose: Treating my mommy to Chili's(:

Thorn: English class.. never look forward to that.

Thursday...

Rose: 6months with Brandon & surprising Ashley for her 17th birthday (yesterdays blog)!

Thorn: Taylor Omenson leaving me in economics again! :p

Friday...

Rose: Mrs. Beard dropping the F bomb... crazy stuff! This lady needs more than Adele to relax her! A massage, some therapy, pills and a straight jacket is more what she needs!

Thorn:The rainn

As the date gets closer to graduation I begin to think... the rose&thorn of my day won't be about school and the small things in life anymore. They'll be about real, more important things... Kind of a scary thought. I'm not too sure I'm ready for that yet.

Excited for this wkend!

Movie night tonight with Brandon, 

then probs gonna be tanning (if it doesn't rain!) the rest of the wkend!...

Getting ready for PROM!! C:

A Tribute to the Birthday Girl!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASHLEY!

Today my best friend turns 17!
So here's the story...

I've known Ashely since I was in the 7th grade, and I always thought she was weird and annoying, never wanted anything to do with her! LOL Then high school came around and Ashely and I had a mutual friend so I started having to put up with her(;

So we finally became real good friends my 10th grade yr. And it went from there!

Ashley in 7th grade

When I hated her! lol

Probably one of our 1st pics together!

End of marching season 10/9th gr yr!

Disney World! Spring Break 11/10th grade!

Her obsession for toy story(:

 Continuing our tradition...

Me proposing with a balloon at the Band Banquet!

Was jealous of Taylor..

Wanted the pic to emphasize her "big butt" lol

Has got to be the BEST present

Sneaking pics in band!

Homecoming 2011

Christmas shopping car rides

Girls night(:

Birthday balloons from Madi

Ashley is one darn unique person! She has an obsession for 'Toy Story' and loves moose. She loves Disney and wants to work at Disney World with Madi for a living!... I will be there every summer y'all (just a heads up!(: haha) She gets along with practically everyone and can put up with a lot.. but she can be mean too! So don't get on her bad side! LOL She's a strong person, she sticks to what she believes and doesn't let any one get in her way and stop her. She has been my rock and life jacket when the days came when I wasn't very strong. And no matter the choices I make I know she's there to back my decision.

I'm glad I got around to actually talking to her in 10th grade because she is now my best friend! I love her with everything in me... Just the way she is, "flaws" and all!

HAPPY  17TH BIRTHDAY ASHLEY!

I LOVE YOU! 
(Ash, you like my Toy Story colors?!)

LMS for a TBH!

You want a tbh post? Here it is!..

To be honest:
-I like to be goofy and laugh alot.
-I AM LOUD... if you don't like it, get some earplugs!
-I don't smoke. I don't drink. I don't party every wkend. I don't sleep around. And I don't start drama to get attention... Yes, we do still exist lol
-I'm a perfectionist, and some may say I'm OCD... but I'm not perfect.
-I'm in AP classes, but it doesn't mean I'm the smartest cookie in the jar... nor am I the dumbest(;
-I don't have perfect hair. I'm not as skinny as a toothpick, I'm knee-knocked, and have big feet.
-I make a bigger deal out of things than what they need to be.
-I like to be center of attention.. that's not necessarily a bad thing! haha
-I don't need 3layers of make-up to make me beautiful. I'm perfectly fine without it.. don't care for your opinions...
-I have guys falling for me up and down, left to right.. but I don't think I'm the $h!t..
-I'm not popular but I do have tons of friends, and lots of best friends.. I appreciate them all. Yes I do get hurt sometimes, but what's life with out a little pain.
-I don't have my own 'clique' I talk to everyone... the 'populars', the 'nerds', the 'geeks', and the 'normals'... I have more friends and am well known that way!(:
-I like to mix-match my socks!
-I prefer sweats and a hoodie over a nice shirt, jeans, and fancy shoes.
-I like to paint my nails to match my outfit, so if it's everyday well then so be it!(:
-I get scared easily, yet I enjoy watching scary movies.
-I don't like to go outside. I hate sweating. And I hate bugs.
-I'm not rich, nor am I poor, but I am well off and have more than what I could ask for.
-I have familiar issues, and sometimes I feel like half my family hates me. 
-I don't put up with fake people.. they're annoying. 

And the list only continues. But after all, all these are what makes me, ME. I love myself the way I am and don't plan on changing for anybody. Nor do I expect anyone to change for me. Take me the way I am or not at all, it's as simple as that. I've done things that some may think as terrible or not right, but I surely don't regret any of it. You gotta enjoy life, you don't get a second chance... YOLO!(:

"I might not be someone's first choice, but I am a great choice. I don't pretend to be someone I'm not, because I'm good at being me. I might not be proud of some of the things I've done in the past, but I'm proud of who I am today. I may not be perfect, but I don't need to be. I am the way God made me. Take me as I am or watch me as I walk away!"

Couldn't ask for a better wkend(:

Lots of fun, and tons of laughing!

But first off:
-If there is one thing someone who doesn't know me, should know about me, is that I will defend my family in any case, no matter the situation... family comes 1st... always. No one gets away with harming my family.
-Another thought... ladies, don't ever let someone touch you in any way that you don't want to be touched. Don't let any guy put a hand on you... if they do, you have every right to defend yourself!

"Live in such a way that if anyone should speak badly of you, no one would believe it"

Friday (Amanda&Zack's 8months!)...

Zack came over all day

A little domestic violence! lol

Amanda wanted to celebrate, so she made a picnic(:

Most ppl pray before they eat, no these kids play patty cake!

Amanda told Zack he was too white, so they went to tan lol

Saturday I helped my mom at work all morning then hung out with Brandon all evening(: Later went to dinner with the family.

Sunday (EASTER!)...

Spent all day with my family, how it should be! After 3 days of being with Zack, we all realized that Zack is Conor's best friend lol

These 2 have a special bond!

Mimi<3

Amanda's wearing heels! She's not THAT much taller then him! haha

 "When all else goes to hell, the people who stand by you without flinching--they're your family" -Jim Butcher

I had an amazing weekend full of love and laughter and people I love. Keep your family close because they are the ones that are always there for you at the end of the day(:

"Love yourself first and everything else falls into line. You really have to love yourself to get anything done in this world" -Lucille Ball

What a week!

A lot of things happened this wk!

I learned quite a few things...

1) Here's a good one.. Mr. Ward needs to find new judges!

     -Blacksheire and Kinsley are too old to be judging, they clearly can't hear if they say the piccolo had great pitch Tuesday night! lol

2) If a child hands you a toy phone (for ex) you take it! And answer it! It's what they're looking for!

3) There may be 1,000 bad things about a person, but I promise, there is always at least one good one! If I can find one in my dad, I can guarantee you it's possible!

4) Separation is a good thing! Just because your couple doesn't go to you 1st but instead goes to their friend, it doesn't mean they're ignoring you, or that something's wrong... they just simply wanna talk to their friends... don't always assume the worst. 

5) It takes two people to cause a fight/argument... so don't point fingers at someone else before making sure your hands are clean first.

6) Don't always revolve your plans around everyone else.
     -I always try to make my friends happy before I even think about pleasing myself. Sometimes, I disagree, and sometimes I'll argue it. But most times, I just let it be... no need to be picky.. But if they don't follow through then what happens, you're stuck with plans you made for someone else.. Your happiness is important too. Don't let your opinion not matter!

7) Don't hold a grudge over something so stupid, it's not doing you any good, just move on. Like Caston and my mom say "don't worry about something you can't control". 

8) To every situation there are two sides...
     -People have different beliefs and different ways of living, and different ways of handling situations. It's important to follow what you believe... but it's also important to be able to realize that not everyone will agree with you... you have to learn to say "i disagree with you, but i accept/understand why you're doing it"

Either way, I'm Switzerland!..

I love my friends!...

They mean the world to me!

I did quite a few things this wk...

Took Senior Pics Sunday!!

Photos by Nikole(:

(nikoleemfinger.blogspot.com)

No Mrs Beard for 2 days!

Tried scaring Caston, then the entire band & the hall dwellers on Monday!

His name is Duddly & he does his job well! I scared like half the school!

Pre-UIL Tuesday

Mia's track meet Wednesday

UIL Choir Today

Straight ones on stage&sightreading! Goodjob Chorale ladies(:

And then, an easter basket&flowers for madi!

Goodjob Ashley! Very cute idea!

Busy week! Full of upsetting/emotional/fun/exciting events! No matter the situation, at the end of the day I can always smile because I know that I have the ones who truly love me at my side!

HAVE A GOOD EASTER Y'ALL!

Prom Dress Shopping!

Seems like this wkend was all about me and the hunt for my prom dress!

So my overly-excited-about-disney prom group wants to do disney(princess) theme color dresses.. so this is what we're looking for! (haha)

I'd either be Belle or Aurora(sleeping beauty)!

Friday:
Madi,Ashley&I went to the Woodlands mall to look, didn't even find anything, you'd think that mall would have it all -.- so that was a fail, except we got ashley to go into victoria's secret for the 1st time!

So Saturday:
Brittni,Breann,Amanda,&I went to Deerbrooke (kinda worried about the variety at 1st). We went into EVERY store that could possibly have any kind of dress! Tried on tons and liked most.. but for me to buy one, I gotta love it!
We went into Dillards and happened to see Taylor Omenson and Katie Bailey doing a prom dress fashion show, so we stayed and watched (free chocolate and perfume samples! heck yeah!)
We went into 'Icings' for breann and ended up seeing jackie&jeremy getting theirs ears pierced!

And then, we come out with these!...

In the end, we picked out two dresses for me, a yellow and a pink... I just can't decide!? It's a tough decision! I'll be sure to let y'all know as soon as I decide!

I had an amazing wkend! Lots of fun, lots of laughing!

I love my friends!

So here's what happened...

*Fair warning, kinda long! But if you care, you'll read it(;

Tuesday night I posted this status...

My plan in life is to grow old and play my flute til the day I die. I told my mom I want to be buried with it (may be odd... oh well). I decided that I want to double major in criminal justice, and music performance (and become famous one day -of course!)

I applied to UH's Moores School of Music and had an audition there, it went pretty well actually, I did mess up once to be honest, but nothing all that terrible. I was told that MoS accepts from about 50-60% of all woodwinds... I got hyped! I mean, how could I NOT get in?!

Two weeks later (this past Tuesday) I received a letter from UH...

 I cried, and cried... and cried some more. It was a tragic moment. Music is what I want to do for the rest of my life, and now it seems as if that will just be impossible.
For 7 years, I've been 1st or 2nd chair in the top bands of middle and high school. For 7 years, I've gotten a 1st division ranking on my solo and my ensemble. And for 7 years have people been telling me that I'm gonna get real far with my music, and I'm gonna be offered tons of scholarships, and that I'm amazing and that no one can turn me down.

But now... it all kinda just seems like a lie...

I have never felt such a pain in my life. It was nothing compared to my past break ups, nothing compared to failing a test, not even as bad as all the pain I had when I broke my tailbone and the surgery on top of it. This was the worst...

I feel disappointed in myself, ashamed, like I let people down, and embarrassed most of all.

It took me four days to finally accept it. I'm not better and I'm not treating it like it never happened, but I'm looking at it as an opportunity! I will practice and I will better improve what I already am. I will not give up my dreams to play in a symphony one day and to hopefully go to Northwestern University, because one day, I will make it BIG. And, I WILL audition again next semester for the Spring because I will pursue my dreams!

So there you have it. This is what happened to me on Tuesday. Hiding behind the screen because if I do it in person, I promise I will cry.

NOTHING WILL STOP ME