inspired.

lately it just seems that one good thing happens to me so that 5 bad ones can follow. and it all happens within a 2 week period. and the same person keeps seeing me make these mistakes. and I feel like I'm not doing a good job. and that I'm letting people down.

sometimes I just wanna cry

sometimes I just don't wanna get out of bed bc I'm afraid of what mistake I will make that day. 

or who I'm gonna "let down".

but then I realize, that's my job, as a human. to make mistakes and let someone fix them so I don't continue to make the same mistakes over again.

but then even after that, I realize, that if that's all that's wrong in my life, I've gotta quit complaining, because I've got it pretty damn good.

***

Earlier this week, one of my friends:

got in his truck to go to work, and it wouldn't start. 

Had it towed, dropped $130 for a new battery.

got back in his truck, the A.C. didn't work anymore?

and the radio wouldn't play any music.

later that day got pulled over for his headlights not being on

(ps. we both knew for a fact that they were! ugh!)

got home, had a ticket in the mail for running a red light.

but even after what I consider a terrible day, he still had a positive mind set. 

thankful for being alive, having a loving family, 

a working vehicle, a job, a home.

I know a guy:

with half a thumb, and still in a cast,

got a flat tire on his way to work..

had to fix it himself, with one hand.

I know a person:

who had been looking for a new job since mid summer.

applying basically everywhere

got some interviews but then didn't get called back.

but after a lot of patience, faith, and determination..

they recently just got a job they're happy with.

no settling or giving up.

***

These people have inspired me. I can't explain it, I guess I don't know how. 

They've just made me smile. That after all their struggles, they keep going. 

I've personally, yet to see any of them break down in public and just give up. 

I'm not saying hide all your emotions, I'm just saying be thankful for what you do have.

I've got to start thinking more positively.
I've got a mom, dad, and sister.
2 and a half jobs.
A perfectly good car.
A home.
Friends who stand by me through good & bad.
3 amazing bosses who are taking me to Disney for Thanksgiving..
(I mean if that's not great, than idk what is!!)

Thank y'all for being so strong and making me realize that there's always something good.

 "God is working things out for you, even if you don't feel it. Have faith and be thankful. 

Where faith grows, miracles blossom."